Favorkhaoya

so my therapist asked me, 'What are you thinking?  Do you wanna talk or write?' Staring at the blank page,  Lost in the warm tea, My mind wandered to the last thing I will ever write! My suicide note!! I am a disappointing daughter, Prolly not as neat and fast in the kitchen, Prolly with no chance of being 'a woman of the people ' Prolly will never be the genius ,logical nor creative daughter.  I am a terrible friend, Lone company gives me more joy than friends,  I feel more secure with my walls than without them! So I push away those who try breaking them. I am an awful lover;  Past mistakes hold me back from giving my all, Why let someone call me "mine" When in real sense I am still caged to myself? ? Reasons to live give reasons to die! Or so I believe  But I don't have enough reasons to die So I am not gonna write this suicide note At least not today and  not any time  soon. And I look back at my therapist, 'I was thinking about how to prepare...

Dear Santa That's what kids call you right ? All I want for Christmas is a reminder!! In this season of mistletoe!  Remind me the reason is the crown of thorns, And it's more than new clothes and fancy hair. In a world where holding out my middle finger feels safe, Remind me to stretch out my arms and give love . Because love ain't a weakness!it's just unexplainable  Whenever I feel like a rumour  Remind me the strength in grapevine communication  Put me out of my mystery  Remind me that all will be okay  And as a guarantee,  I won't be on the naughty list By Favor khaoya

CONFESSION I bet you know not how I feel for you Unexplainable is the feeling that I'm feeling for you If true love was a lie then ad rather lie to you But the truth is ,I'd be true to you I am JEALOUS Jealous of every moment I am not with you Jealous of the air you inhale Jealous of the raindrops on your skin Jealous of every passing car that has the privilege to wear your reflection and wonder how perfect and handsome you are. Naturally I am a fearless lady But deep down one fear shatters me To have an open heart surgery and you popping out Coz you being In my heart is a priceless feeling and experience Explanation of why my life has exceptional results. If our life became a game of chess I would be your Queen over and over again Coz u my king,have my guaranteed perpetual protection and love. By Favorkhaoya

REQUEST In rags I am laden With a burden Full of bags My burden Too tough for me I can't bear  to be a beggar anymore I need salvation At the door of your house I knock,let me in, Master! humbly I ask Relieve me from my burden I am a poor weak sinner Erase my misdoings Give me the joy of simple things And an eye for ultimate beauty Let my heart be full of love My mind overflowing with reason Ability to discern good and evil each season So I stop being a beggar Coz I need to be rich in you God. By Favorkhaoya

BITTERSWEET she is sweet Thief of hearts Thriller of souls Anticipated all day long... She makes me relax She helps me calm my mind She comforts my troubled heart She gives solace to my troubled soul. She is bitter sweet Attractive yet very distractive She is like a lizard's tail When lost she comes again. She is a sweet enemy She gives you pleasure The joy during leisure is above measure But then... Beautiful, Please avoid me like plague during the day I need to set the ball of my life rolling Welcome like rain during planting season at night Coz I need u badly then if am to have a good day Oh sweet sleeep Have mercy on me,hear my plea By favorkhaoya

Kissing the beautiful pages was my thyme, One thing I would look forward to all the time, Coz it was my rose to heart . Each mark I left surpressed Venus the goddess of beauty . For all my beautiful works left a legacy. I did not think the days I would run out of ink would come. I am drying!! I am weak yet there is no hand to hold me not to slip. I fall yet no page to give me a soft landing I break yet no other pens feel share my pain I drip the last drops of ink but no one cares to listen to the voice of my fading ink as it speaks . I am a falling empire with no one to take the mantle from me. #@tears of a dry pen ©Favor the poet

THE ONE THAT NEVER WAS Every particle of my air came with his essence on it, He walked into my life and lit me up, Ignited a blaze in my soul, A spark was felt whenever we met. Yet he sat on a seat of deceit!! His were eyes of true lies!! He made me love him through hell and back, I would gladly push everyone off the bridge for him, Willingly jump into the abyss for him, Carry tons of pain for his happiness, Without contradiction I would help him hide a corpse. Coz I thought I was his Degea on a man United goal post But yet I was nothing less than smoke in his eyes and everything more than vinegar on his teeth. Forever wasn't our destiny, For he wanted me for a season, For him I was only a tool of reason, Getting him to his glory using my help was his mission, Being disposed off as trash at the end was his resolution. The rejection I felt was unparalleled, He killed me, He avoided using his bow and arrow, He used his heart against my heart, My hurt is unexpla...

You are my hero who became flesh and blood. You treat me not like an ornament Neither like a piece of artware in the gallery. To you :I am priceless. A precious gem You show me all colours of love. They all shine with passion, Embraces with compassion, Each day in a new version, Each hour in a unique motion, To sooth and comfort me like a cushion, To build my courage like a mason. When my life gets out of pace An illusion of your face remains Coz my life without you is like a star on a cloudy day. I love you my fapie😻

Be faithful to her and not detached, Be committed to her even when you are not relaxed, Be gentle and yet tough, Be predictable in her unpredictability, When she needs a friend :be her best friend, When she is legally a mess: be her lawyer When she is underated :be influencial for her, When she is lonely:be her cheerleader, When she makes wishes:be her 'yes' genie in a bottle. Use a rod when her road is wack! Crack her insecurities and fears like a wallnut. Dear father of my daughter, Make her life your call! Make her live a life and not a nightmare.