ONE LAST CALL

I had a bad day today.
I knew a call from you would fix that,
That's why hours on end on days like this 
I look at my phone with anticipation 
I know it's not so much 
But It would have felt like once more ,
A million little shining starts had aligned
And I would have be so happy
But the call never came 
And it took everything in me not to call you

I have wanted to call for a while now, 
Not to tell you I miss you
But my body and spirit know I do
They remind me so when the night gets quite eerily 
I remember that I can't call you like I used to ,
But i want to hear your voice 
The voice that calmed my storms and awakened my butterflies
And it took everything in me not to call you 

The thought of you and I is something we have both left in the past,
But I wanna take the shovel and dig you back up 
To tell you Adele's "someone like you" is my new favorite song.
Maybe that way you will understand that for me it's not over 
And it takes everything in me not to call you.

I know that you think I moved on and I hate you
I don't blame you
I bet it's because everytime you reach out you don't get a response
But love , I can't say "hello" and risk another "goodbye"
I didn't walk away,I will always love you
And it takes everything in me not to call you.

I watch your life in pictures
Just like I used to watch you sleep
Sometimes you are happy, sometimes you are sad.
And I want to call you one last time,
Except,a love like ours does not have a "one last call."
And it takes everything in me not to call you.
By Favor Khaoya

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