My precious

 

Tell me why you fell asleep ten minutes ago and I am longing for you like a dragon longs for the open air? Tell me why I have spent the whole day talking to you, and the minute I stop, I feel like a piece has been forcefully yanked from my heart and the place that was filled with joy and happiness has been replaced with nostalgia. Is this what having a boy crush does to someone? Or is it just me quite missing home?

I think it is both.

I have been listening to Bradley Cooper today over and over. And he sang, tell me something girl, are you happy in this modern world? Or do you need more? Is there something you are searching for?

And tell you what my precious, I am happy in this modern world. I am happy that even though I am oceans and mountains away, I still get to see you. I still get to hear your voice. I still get to sleep with you on the other side. I still get to share a meal with you. Now is that perfect, no. But it is ideal.



You know what was perfect? Mornings we would wake up to breakfast in bed, lunch times we would get lost watching the office, dinners that we'd cook together and spend hours not agreeing what to watch or do. 10am’s we would go outside the apartment to bask in the sun and save face for when age catches up with us. 5pm’s we would go to the market to do grocery shopping and 9pm’s when we’d make tea like old people. My precious, when we are old and grey just like when we are miles away, I will always remember us this way



Tell you what my love, do I need more ? How can I need more when I have all I want and need in you? A partner, heck at this point the only thing I do alone is watch criminal minds! A friend. You are my first call when I have good news, bad news and when I have nothing to say. You are my person in silence and in noise, in order and in chaos, in laughter and in tears, in professionalism and in casualness, in life and in fantasy.

So, my Charm, when Bradley Cooper asks if there is something else, I am searching for, my answer is no. I already found the something I was searching for. I have already found you. And I know I have told you time and again, that I know how to do life, mostly because I am doing it with you. Darling, you are absolutely necessarily to me!

My life is a blur of color and sound; I hope you know you are the one tethering me to sanity.

If I were to search for something else, I would be searching for how to make days go faster so that I lay in your arms again. I would find the greatest minds in quantum physics and mathematics, make them sit with geologists and geographers and invite some architects so they can design a teleportation machine. Because my precious, I wanna be with you now and forever, I am drawn to you the way the trees are drawn and bend towards the sun in the summer, out of an irresistible attraction, admiration, desire, want and need.

So, what then shall I say to you my precious? I love you! I love you in every kind of way! And I always will. You are a light and warmth in which I will always swim. 



By Favor Khaoya


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