Favorkhaoya

AT THE BRINK,,,, I had been standing over the window for quite some time now .My mood was pensive and I was somewhat greatful that I turned down the family dinner.I was tired of yet another episode of showing face just to have beautiful pictures for Instagram. Exhausted of practicing our 'Wilson smile';something mother has inculcated in us since we learnt how to say her name. We had one mantra in the family that she tried religiously to make us uphold. "A Wilson is the same, inside and outside ." Although thinking back right now,I think a Wilson is a pretender inside and outside.Our parents were going through a messy divorce .But they still had to hold hands as they went out in public because they had to save face .As soon as they arrived in the house,they would sanitize as though each other's arms contained something lethal. What followed after that was a trail of insults and blamegames that still irritate my ears even after they were gone. It was cold outside....

When I was about three years old ,I used to watch my sister go to school and I would cry .There was nothing in the world I wanted more than going with her.I mean ,a place with a bunch of kids ,play ground ,toys and porridge ;does it get any better ?I kept dreaming of it like a scene from a movie that every lover waits for or a passage in a book that every reader waits for as it's the key to unknown happiness or plot twist . My parents somehow managed to curb my curiosity and love for school until I was off age . School was not exactly what I dreamt it would be like but I most definitely enjoyed being their.From the onset,I made friends and became some sort of "ring leader".I called the shots and everyone in my squad was at my beck and call.The sun rose and set at my feet and they worshipped me for that .With groundnuts and crisps and Mandazi's,it was not so hard to set foot on my throne and ensure it was stable.I never took that for granted though ,for I wasn't su...

"I can't do this!" I didn't believe it when those words left my mouth.I had thought of a million possibilities of how this would end.None of them included a four -word sentence and eight seconds call. You know ,deep down I thought I had found my happy ending !Every nerve of my body would scream perfection at the thought of him.Every cell would twerk with excitement with his mere touch and God damn! His words would throw spasms of orgasms my way.I am a succer for eloquence especially when it's sprinkled with lust and creativity.Yes!!I had it baaaad for him.Craving for him was the least I would do. His flaws were without trace to me coz he had ten thousand ways to make me laugh until I cry. Adrian !The boy of my dreams ,The Man of my fantasies and the night mare of my reality. Nov 17th 2020 By Favor khaoya

You know how they say every door has a lock and every lock has a key?I always thought I was the corner room. The pristine serene room that no one dares try to open its door. The  one whose key is like a treasure being sought by pirates all the way to the caribbean. But at that moment;while he was standing by the bathroom door and stretched out to place a slight kiss on my lips I found the key to my lock. Months later,I still remember how those 28 seconds felt like; a touch from the gods won't compare to that moment!I wiggled,pulsated and made contortive sweeps all over my body .His lips soft and tender maybe from the prior steamy hot moment we had just had or because he wanted it brief,slow and soft comforting in ways words would never be.Their touch gentle ,innocent ,naughty,affirmative and electrifying .The look on his eye screaming "girl you mine !" At that moment,I blossomed like a flower and like a bee, he dug deeper to the nectar. Fast!hot!fiery!thirsty !hungry!.His...

And on those days Where everything is in shades! Nothing is crystal clear, Everything wavy! Nothing straight, Everything stormy! Nothing calm, Everything sandwiched! Nothing parallel On those days, Blur the noise, Make a choice, Find your voice, Re-define yourself! React to stimuli. Adjust and adopt You can't rule everyday! You ain't perfections heir Neither it's spare You are you! Rock and roll Find title to your untitled life! For everyday is a new dawn! Full of possibilities 😉 By Favor khaoya

Sitting on the window sill, The scent of the wet soil intoxicates my nostrils, The musical sound as the raindrops hitting the rusty sheets, I stare at the water droplets on plants I am lost in thought.... What is my corner of the sky?Earth,?Sea? Crops have raindrops, Raindrops have clouds, Clouds have thunderstorms, Thunderstorms have lightening, Lightening have the sky What's my corner of the sky?.... Doctors have  hospitals Judges parade the corridors of justice, Poets have rhyme,smooth is their way with words, Musicians have music, melodies that sooth souls Archers have accuracy,a predictable trajectory of the arrow, What's my corner of the sky?..... Nature journeys,seeking illumination Like flowing rivers Tall growing trees  And flying birds I seek my path What is my corner of the sky ? Like a ship,I sat safe at my port But that is not what I am built for Time to break cages inadequacy Time to own up my throne Time to climb the mountain,and  Find  my ...

Daddy I am sorry! Why lock my out? Why turn me down? Why turn a deaf ear on me? Daddy would you please listen ! 2hours past the witching hour, I slowly trode for  home. 2 am the puzzle pieces fit, At this hour, I disentangled myself; emerging from the depths of the spiral  labyrinth, 2am , I broke off rusty chains of captivity, 2am, I walked out of the jaws of trouble. Not entirely unscathed, Daddy would you please listen! Curfew rules I broke! My report on home codes is null daddy, I acknowledge! My movements are stealth, I sneak, Being corky my art,I'm a brat(have been) Spinning stories I perfected. Yet this once, The puppeteer was the puppet. Funny how tables turn! Daddy would you please listen! A handful I am, To the edge I push you, To the wall I pin you, To the ground I root you, I took you for a ride down town!  My affairs to you became a dark abbys. Yet this once,  Light was hidden from me, Daddy would you please listen! I was betrayed! Lied to! Used! Dragged...